my daily reflections…

when i came into the rooms and got a sponsor, he suggested that if i had a “God problem,” i could use the program as a HP until i found a HP of my own conception. he warned me of usin any one person within the fellowship of recovery as a HP as any one human had the potential to fail me, but the group, when taken as a whole, could and would help me. he emulated how the 12 spiritual principles, would not change. they were solid and could provide me the answers i needed for any of the problems i may face. i did as he suggested, because i did have trust issues and found it hard to believe in somethin i thought was not tangible. but the idea of usin the program made sense. as my time in recovery grew and i threw out lil bits of hope, usin faith to bolster em, they became my reality. as my faith broadened and deepened, i came to believe in a HP of my own conception. the thought that God couldnt be tangible was quickly dismissed as i watched His works around me happen. not only were they happenin around me, but they were also happenin for me. today, with His spiritual intuition, i have a HP of my own conception. i was in a meetin recently and someone said a person had approached them and asked what their perception of their HP was. the person who was asked, asked the person to ask them tomorrow. in between the time they met again, the person went home and searched the big book for all the areas within that told how God worked spiritually. when he met the person the next day, he gave his perception of his HP. i found it such an inspirational concept. what an awesome idea. its been my experience that as i develop the feelin of bein led by God, i get to earn the rewards of Gods power and peace. what ev my conception is, as long as i carry with me hope and faith, i get to live with peace of mind. i get to enter into a world that i will never experience by relyin upon my own will. ive learned im the one responsible for the effort. its been my experience little good can come to me unless i have first accepted my own devastatin weakness and all its consequences. until i humbled myself, my sobriety or recovery could not grow or evolve into what it is today. all i gotta do is be willin to accept, begin, and continue. 1 day @ a time...