my daily reflections…

ive learned through recovery that there are certain character defects and shortcomins that may never disappear from my personality. ive also learned there are solutions i get to use through my recovery to overcome these flaws when they occur. it is my responsibility to use what ive learned to combat these flaws when they occur, or allow myself to suffer from them, lettin em guide my will. im not so blinded today that i live in my sufferins for too long. i aint gonna try to tell ya’ll that i dont get affected by my self-centered fear, cause i surely do. what is different from the days of doin my dirt and today, is that it doesnt last long. as soon as i recognize its affectin me and my behavior or thinkin, and sometimes after givin it up to my HP a couple of times, i get to use the 12 spiritual principles to beat down the fears which affect me negatively. i couldnt report these findins hadnt it been for a willingness to look at self, and deal with the items found through personal moral inventory. furtherin that willingness, i get to use hope, faith, and courage to overcome the self-centered fears that affect my character and personality when they strike. it is an ongoin attempt, not to be perfect, but to progress as i live each moment through each day of my recoverin life. perfect freedom from fear may be a goal, but personal spiritual progress is my aim. sometimes, still today, i have to go through the worst to get to the best. when i look at my fears in a balanced perspective, i find that many, if not all my problems, solve themselves. why let them confuse and frustrate me. self-criticism and unkindness vanish as though they had never been when i allow my HP to take my fears from me. today i get to live with a proper perspective toward life. though never cured from self-centered fear, i must remain willin to allow the calm and sane mind my HP and recovery allows so i may see spiritual things as the true realities and material things as only temporary and fleetin. only through a constant practice in faith and trust, do i get to live a freedom from the fears that come. 1 day @ a time...