my daily reflections…

my sponsor and i went over my amends list and scripted why, how, and when, i was to make my amends to those i had harmed. it was made clear that i had no business just headin out and free ballin any amends as i had the potential to do more harm than good. with this practice, the scriptin of my amends, i had done a thorough study of the reasons i harmed others, the character defects and shortcomins used to harm em, and when the right timin to make amends was necessary. i look back today at the lessons this exercise provided. i learned that takin the right steps, becomin educated of my past actions, then takin the next right action, helped me be prepared for whatever the outcome, or consequence, may be from my attempts. i learned that this prepared amends was to remove threats to my sobriety and help me to either create anew or rebuild relationships with others that may have been lost. i learned that with the study of my trials, an understandin as to why, how, and when, i done what i had done, would help me so i wouldn’t create even more harm in makin an amends, allowin myself to live and let live. i learned how to use tact, how to be honest, open-minded, and willin to be humble. from that experience so long ago, today im able to stop & think before i rush into any behavior or word that may cause me or another harm in this moment, or in the future. it is a practice in usin empathy and compassion. even those split seconds when i stop before behavin or runnin my big fat mouth, can be beneficial to those around me. my willingness to use my HP, helps me own acceptance, belief, and change. just as any amends i may give, when i live beside my HP, takin Him with me, i get to live my life as though it were everlastin and has meanin. i get to have dreams for what my life can be like. i get to own my behaviors and thinkin, hopefully givin good affect to those around me. when im willin to work hard on every task i face today, bein willin to practice, i will improve. when i remove threats to my sobriety, or anothers well bein, i get to be anythin i want to be if i want it bad enough and am willin to work for it. 1 day @ a time...