my daily reflections…

over the weekend i got to drive up to greenville sc and attend my youngest sons daughters 1st bday party. in december i get to fly from pensacola to grand rapids mi and be a part of my oldest sons weddin. there was a time in my early recovery when i wouldve never been asked to attend either events. through extremely challenging work on self, makin the necessary amends to my youngest son, my daughter, and oldest son, i get to partake in their lives as they grow in their young adulthood. theyve seen the arduous work ive done and the life change recovery has offered me. in time theyve let me know that i am a part of their lives today. i get to have a relationship with all 3 that i thought id lost and would never regain. i cannot tell ya in words how blessed i feel or grateful i am that i get to have individual relationships with all 3. i get to be a part of both my granddaughters lives even though they live 100s of miles away from me. these gifts are nothin i couldve ever accomplished by myself or own self-will. i can be grateful for the recovery ive been shown by others in this thing we do and my HP by not only bein the father they need, but the dad and gpa they need today. as i continue to be completely honest with myself, challengin my recoverys growth in healthy ways, like remainin vulnerable & responsible, i get to keep experiencin the events i spoke of above. if i continue to make use of my mistakes, failures, losses, and sufferins, i get to use what happens to me, takin my sufferins, difficulties, and hardships, to make use of them to help some unfortunate soul who is faced with the same troubles. its what recovery has taught me, then shown me. by askin my HP in my mornin meditation what i can do each day for the man who is still sick, i get the answers when my own house is in order. the blessins mentioned prior are the blessins of hope i get to pass on. bein thankful to my HP is all nice nstuff, but showin it through gratitude may help another. all i gotta do is continue to trust God, clean house, and help others. relationships once thought lost can be rebuilt better than ever before. 1 day @ a time...