my daily reflections…

another readin i read every day in my mornin readins asks me to perform each task faithfully. it tells me i cannot do this life alone. it tells me i must eventually get off the bench and get into the game. that im not just a spectator: im supposed to be one of the team. with this in mind, when livin my day as best as i can, tryin to do my HPs will, im less likely to speak or act hastily or rashly. just as yesterdays readin asked me to be self- reliant, speakin and actin with confidence, not always do i have the inner strength to do it. in these times i hafta rely upon what ive learned in recovery. even as i may feel confident in my next move or word, i feel it is best to take the millisecond to think and ask for my HPs guidance. when i do this, im given the ability to be as fair-minded and tolerant as my character will allow. ive learned that these moments of a brief stop before i act or speak gives me the time to let the power, strength, and confidence of balance and patience build within rather than have the liability of prejudice and narrow-mindedness become the action or word i throw out. recovery has shown me, then taught me, how to curb rashness. and it is with a healthy sense of self-reliance i get to behave as my HP would have me. da good Lord knows, and so do i, it is with the perseverance of step 10 i get to show His works from within me, outward, toward others. and behavin with the responsibility recovery has taught me, i get to give others, and myself, the dignity deserved. if i want to live a changed life from the shit that used to hold me down, its best i live and practice the steps i took to get where i am today. healthy and balanced unthinkin behavior has become a first nature for me today, not the unhealthy unthinkin behavior of the days of doin my dirt. have i curbed rashness? i reckon the story of my recovery tells the tale. its not so much what i say i will do, its more what i do. if i say it, its best for me today, i do it. 1 day @ a time...