my daily reflections…

do ya wanna know what i think gets monotonous? wakin every day, i mean comin to, and bein full of fear. bein scared because i dont know how im gonna manage my day. knowin that at some point, ima drink yet again and not have any control over what i do or what i say. because i choose to remember those days of long ago, today i have reason to not go back. though i still may not know whats gonna happen throughout my day, i do have some control over it. not so much what the world may present me, but how i may react to it. it is with the learnin process of the prior 9 steps, i get to carry forward with perseverance into the phases of my emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual development. and of course, this means a daily monitorin of action and thinkin. i must continue to take personal inventory if i want to continue to heal from the days of doin my dirt. doin this simple action procures me the spiritual awareness i need to live with peace of mind. i get to continue to learn to lean on Gods strength cause ive learned what my personal limitations are. ive learned a process through this thing we do, to know that my weakness is Gods opportunity. when i sit in quiet times of meditation, feelin ok with self, through the thunderous silence, im able to hear the still, small voice, and words of my HP so i may be born anew. when i take time for myself, i need not fear bein alone because i never am. i get to focus on the character i own and ask how i may use it to help another. it is a simple action of continued growth that helps me live the solutions ive learned through each powerful step. it is a daily monitorin that helps keep me on point in my recovery so i may stay recovered. 1 day @ a time...