my daily reflections…

when times of struggle surround me today, i need to think of all the events ive lived through in my recovery, rememberin how i made it through those times. what did i do, who did i reach out to, did i git my ass to a meetin, did i open my big book and search out a solution, did i inventory what was goin on, did i put pen to paper, did i pray & meditate, or did i succumb to the situation and fail in my efforts to use recovery to live past it. obviously, i didnt succumb, or i may not be writin these personal daily reflections. just as this mornins daily suggests, i aint gotta do this thing we do alone. i have others in my life i can reach out to, to make my recovery work for me. their experience, alone, or combined with mine, can be the difference between success in my recovery and the dreaded 1st drink. the choices are mine alone to make. its by faith in my HP, i can reach out through prayer, listen through meditation, then act upon what i perceive is my HPs will. i have an understandin that He may answer through intuitive inclination on how i should move forward. with the consultation of others, helpin to set by bearins straight, its then, by works, i move forward, whether i like what i have to do or want to? sometimes, with a healthy, right, mindset, i can live through experiences with the wisdom recovery has given me. but many times, i do need the help of another to live through times of struggle. i must remember the times i could not remain sober, in prior attempts, on my own will power. i needed the help of others. on the anvils of their e.s.h., i get an opportunity to live forward. i will never be alone again as long as i remember im just one of many who have the illness of alcoholism and one of many who have learned what to do about it. havin surrendered as gracefully as possible to the inevitable, i get to be honest, with no more duckin or dodgin. i aint gotta pretend to be what i am not any longer. my cards are on the table for the entire world to see. and by faith, and works, i get to continue to live happy, joyous, and free. if i dont do whats necessary, i dont get to experience the rewards or promises of recovery. all i gotta do is act right now, in this moment by doin what i can, where im at, and with what i have. 1 day @ a time...