my daily reflections…

what made the relationship between my sponsor and i in the beginnin was that he talked of his experience of what it was like. from those talks i could recognize and identify the illness within my own story. he didnt try to tell me anythin other than how he used alcohol as a solution that worked, until that solution stopped workin and became a necessity. oh, how could i relate. oh, how i could see how alcohol had become the same for me. though our circumstances and situations may have been different, the emotions he shared with me while goin through the loneliness and illusion which caused the delusion that everythin would be ok if he just managed well, lined right up to my alcoholism. how many times did i promise myself to do things just a lil dif than the last time. it didnt seem to matter, often times, worse shit happened when i tried to control my behavior and action. my sponsor, just as i, could not outthink his alcoholism. today its my turn to share my story with those honestly seekin a solution which doesnt include the use of alcohol. i want to be responsible in my program of recovery and responsible to the program of recovery itself. and when i share with another how and what makes me an alcoholic, i get to grow a lil more in program. i used to think of my alcoholism as somethin bad that happened to me, but today, ive come to realize the blessin in my life it has been. its changed me from a monster into someone who genuinely cares about others and myself. why shouldnt i share that happiness, joy, and freedom with others. my sponsor set an example for me to follow. as ive learned, its an example i need to follow. 1 day @ a time...