my daily reflections…

the laurels i used to use were rested upon all the time. my moral inventory showed me, then taught me, how usin past accomplishments, burnt up morals, and misled behaviors led me to instances where i caused problems for myself and for others. havin sat in many meetins and made friends in the rooms, ive been fortunate to have others teach me what can happen when they rest on their laurels. what makes me so different that my alcoholism wont rear is fuckin head and have me doin shit because i did once before and nothin happened. lemme tell ya, i aint no different than any other who may suffer from the disease of alcoholism. even as i practice spiritual awareness each mornin and throughout my day, growin my spiritual condition, it doesnt mean that my alcoholism wont try to trick me. i can say that by maintainin my spiritual condition with mornin prayer & meditation, maintainin relationships with people and trusted friends in recovery, livin my spiritual program of recovery, and attendin meetins on a regular basis, i have a purdy good chance that my alcoholism wont creep up on me. its been my experience that those who lapse in the things i mentioned can, and do, let their alcoholism trick em into that next 1st drink. as long as i remain strong and confident in my program of recovery, i have the opportunity to use it when times arise that may cause me to think i have no other option than that next 1st drink. when i feel sure of some response to my prayers, i get to be content with whatever form that response takes. ive learned i cannot change the world around me by my shear will, but i can change how i perceive it and respond to it. sometimes it means i must learn ways to use my recovery to make it so i can live with peace of mind and a brand of serenity which is promoted by my recovery efforts. ive learned how to not change my life by tryin to affect the people around me into doin what i want them to or tryin to control whats goin on. ive learned through recovery that theres always another great possibility ready and waitin for me to run with it. 1 day @ a time...