my daily reflections…

the process of buildin and groomin spiritual awareness started early in my program of recovery. steps 2, 3, 6, & 7, were the steppin stones upon which growin the concept of spiritual awareness happened. hope that i could change, buildin a relationship with my HP with faith, developin the willingness to turn shit over by lettin go and lettin my HP, and tradin ego & pride for humility. but those were not the only steps which helped me to get where i am today with my growth in spiritual awareness. steps 1, 4, 5, 8, 9, & 10, were just as instrumental. i need to be honest with myself about what i had been through. i need to have courage to dig into what i had been through so i could correctly label the flaws & shortcomins. i need to cultivate a sense of ownership for those flaws & shortcomins usin integrity. i need to dive even deeper and find out how i had used those flaws & shortcomins to harm others and put them, as well, through shit they didnt need to go through. i then need to be held accountable for those situations and circumstances and accept the justice they think are appropriate for my conduct. i then must persevere usin each of the prior principles in my daily life, growin and nurturin each just as i had my alcoholism. with all of this, recovery taught me how self-examination, prayer, and meditation could help me live the change recovery offered. the relationship with my HP grew through each step and i learned how to communicate with Him. with my best understandin of all those steps, ive been directed forward toward the next spiritual principle, ive matured an awareness of how the spiritual properties of recovery within me have grown. all it took was for me to focus & listen as i trudged through each steps teachins. today it aint as difficult watchin & listenin for the spirituality that swirls around me in my daily livin. all i have to do is keep a centered approach and tune into what my HP may be tryin to teach me through the others i interact with daily. all of this may seem like very normal, everyday, kinda stuff to those who are not alcoholic like me. but for me, they are academic and i must continue to use each er’day. when i forget about my 1st step, im destined to repeat it again. 1 day @ a time...