my daily reflections…

the ambitions i have today are quite different from the ambitions i had before recovery. i really dont know if it is because of the paradigm shift in perception, growin older, or just because. i like to think that the life i live today is because i have made changes that brought about new circumstance. to be honest, i know i had truly little to do with it. there were forces at work that i had no idea were happenin. now, i know i had to make the effort and decide to change my thinkin processes and behavior, but the changes in my ambitions have been brought about because of changes in values. i broke, givin everything up and finally askin for a better way, surrenderin my will. today, just as this mornins readin suggests, i have that deep desire to live as useful as i can, humbly walkin under the grace of my HP. my goals for my life are different today than they ever have been in the past. i have seen so much and lived through even more. my goals to live a good life today start with my relationship with God. i dont try to pretend, lie to myself, or portray that i follow any particular set of religious values or particular religion, however, i will say that i do my best to live by spiritual values. the spiritual principles recovery has provided me with are goals i wish to attain today. this does not mean that i dont believe in religious deities, because i do. i just hope to convey that the guide i try to follow may be transmitted through my actions and behaviors. this ambition and desire are wholly true and is a hope that i may live usefully and walk humbly under the grace of my Higher Power. 1 day @ a time…