my daily reflections…

when i came into the rooms i was made aware that the 1st spiritual principle was honesty. i can recall lyin to myself thinkin i had always been an honest person. ive since learned of the self-deception and true powerlessness i used to live because of self-dishonesty. ive learned how unmanageability had me doin shit for my alcoholism i probably would not do today. ive learned how honesty can change me into a person with good character and integrity. these are concepts i always thought i had and didnt, they are principles i must continue to work on to keep today. im not tryin to say that these spiritual principles have by any means been mastered by me, but i am tryin to tell of how these have provided avenues of personal change which have produced a man with a different way of perceivin the world around me. essential to the understandin of honesty, was an understandin of how i, alone, had caused the problems in my life which brought me to the rooms; that i, alone, could not solve the problems which brought me to the rooms. how with the help of others and my HP, i could change the behaviors and thinkin that brought me to the rooms. with the help of others i could adopt a management style that would turn the unmanageability of my life into manageability. acknowledgement of the dishonesty i had lived opened the door toward a self-honesty that created a pathway toward change within that was cast outward with forgiveness, hope, and love. it provided me with the courage to change my emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual character with an honest look at the self-centered fear that had driven me to become the person i had become. today i get to live with an inner peace and ease which swallows my pride allowin me to face everythin and recover. 1 day @ a time...