my daily reflections…

fer me, i have to take this God given 12 step program everywhere i go, every day. i find it works better fer me that way. it can be hard at times, and i can sometimes feel like there is no God, but i know deep within He is there watchin me in everythin i do. i can lean on Him when i need Him the most and those times are often when i am out with other people livin life on a daily basis. i needed the big new beginnin of my life. it was important for me to stop the chaos i was creatin for others and myself. it all had to start with me, i couldnt have it start with anyone or anythin else. my alcoholism, and i, were the problem. i had always blamed others for the pandemonium in my life. it was time to stop that nonsense and own up to my part in it all. learnin and practicin, actually livin, the new principles i was givin had to be done. even though it had to start with me, others would benefit from them as well. surrenderin, acceptin, and gettin honest with myself about what the root causes in my life were, was a beginnin that needed done. i could then begin with everythin else. since those early days in my recovery, i have grown and i get to use the wisdom ive gained. i can say it is a blessin to catch myself today when i go to lettin go and lettin joel. the solid foundation ive grown to rely upon comes to mind and i get to turn, what used to be chaos and pandemonium, into an experience that helps me and may help another. experience has led to knowledge, and knowledge has led to wisdom. i get to demonstrate spiritual principles in my home, occupation, and affairs. 1 day @ a time…