my daily reflections…

when it was time to face the facts, it was time to face the facts. i tried everythin i knew not to do it but was left with no other recourse. i fought it hard but after lookin, and watchin the people around me, i had to finally pick 1 or the other. i chose someone elses way and today i am happy, joyous, and free, God is everythin. all i had to do was make a choice. fer years i held the reins of my destiny and did whatever i wanted fer as long as i wanted. this action and behavior always caused self-imposed crisis which i would immediately push the blame of cause off onto another person. it was always someone elses fault fer my misfortune even though i was the one who caused all the chaos around me. in the end there was nobody else to point the finger at, i had to accept the responsibility fer my own action and behavior. i found i could not do this alone. i needed help, the help of others, i could no longer toss people or God aside. comin into this thing we do i seen others usin faith in their HP to be successful in life. it was workin for them; it gave me hope. i mean, many had lived the lifestyle id lived, did much of the things i had done, and yet they were livin life happy. i had to finally surrender and ask God to help me; i was lost and had no place left to run. alcohol had failed me, i had failed me, and it was time fer change. today i know and understand i dont run the show any longer, i must follow and do His will daily ifinz i wanna keep what i got. 1 day @ a time…