my daily reflections…

there are still times where it is all about me. i can remember, almost fightin to the death with people, just to prove to them that i was right or was the one that was most important. “to the death,” words i chose carefully, cause thats how insane i was. today, i no longer have to have everyone elses life, or action, be done the way i want it, just to suit me. i can live and let live, as tough as it may be for me to do. with my HPs help i can learn to love and forgive whether loved or forgiven. this was an idea that had to be pounded into my head by my sponsor early on. i could no longer use the excuse, i wasnt to blame fer anythin others had caused me to do. even though i understood i may have caused some of the problems in my life before i came into this thing we do, i still didnt want to take full responsibility fer em. as i learned and worked the spiritual principles of this thing we do with my sponsor, learnin this new way of life, i began to slowly understand and see how my selfish wants and desire had driven me to makin many of the poor life decisions i had made. it wasnt an overnight epiphany either, it took time fer this idea of self-centeredness to grab hold and take root. i always thought i could do as i wanted because there was nobody else lookin after, or out, fer me. that kind of mind set, behavior, and action, was the root of all of my troubles. when i finally came to that realization my life started changin drastically. i became someone who was of help instead of a thief of love, forgiveness, and trust. i began to have acceptance, love, forgiveness, hope, faith, and trust others. i have been given the gift of true self-knowledge today, so i may use the assets ive discovered to grow beyond self and help others. 1 day @ a time…