my daily reflections…

i have been granted the opportunity to gain experience on how to use humility through failure. with the painful emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual lessons gifted, i have learned how to use what the program teaches to live with peace of mind. life may not be the way i want it, it is the way i choose to manage and live it that determines the outcome of my serenity; surrender and acceptance. i remember the loneliness, sorrow, and pain of the last days of doin my dirt all too well. i am grateful that this program has turned that around. the joy and happiness i feel today from doin my HPs will far surpasses the happiness and joy i received from doin my will. all i have to do is remember a few of the recovery paradoxes whenever i am in a bad place in my head. just as the readin suggests this mornin, through failure, i learned the spiritual principle of humility. as much as it may suck when i fail, there is always a lesson fer me to learn. though i may not see it at the time, in later reflection, i learn the value of my experience. failure also gives me the opportunity to exercise other valuable spiritual principles of this thing we do. it helps me to call upon my HP and others in the fellowship. it creates opportunities fer service work within the program. as painful as failure can be fer me at times, i always tend to gain beneficial ways to practice the steps and traditions within my life from it. the challenge of failure is a part of my life whether deep in my alcoholism or livin a life of recovery. i am grateful today i do not use the same methods of my past to deal with it. 1 day @ a time…