my daily reflections…

i know that when i start gettin irritated or agitated about somethin it is certainly JOEL taken over. i have been taught thru this great program that this is a sign that i need to stop, collaborate, and listen to my HP and let Him have it. as i look back, when i havent done this, i can see peoples feelins, hearts, and love strewn on the ground after me. i dont want to look back and see these things anymore after i have passed by. so today i choose to stop and listen fer my HPs soothin words fer a minute. even still today with years of recovery i can create havoc and chaos in my life; i can do it and not even realize i am. i get hurried or rushed and start headin into the twilight zone with crazy thoughts and ideas of how i can make whatever it is thats goin on better. self-will starts runnin riot and further havoc and chaos ensue. the thing about it is, i dont usually realize it until catastrophe has started happenin. when i am able to sense these things happenin i need to stop and regroup, collect my thoughts and recenter my direction to my HPs will, not mine. it is the only way i can be successful. askin Him to help through silence, meditation, and non-judgment i can again become one with nature. i must allow my HPs will to overcome my self-will or perish an untimely fate. it is an act of personal growth in humility to recognize, then move away from, self-will and self-centeredness. 1 day @ a time…