my daily reflections…

i did not live in that damned halfway house fer 2 1/2 years because livin life on lifes terms was easy. i needed to be “retrained,” as my ma liked to call it. i stayed there that whole time without ever once relapsin because i wanted to be “retrained.” i had a willingness to change my current lifestyle at the time. i had to learn what real responsibility was, not what i thought responsibility was. it was not an easy task or journey to take but was 1 i needed. i found a God of my understandin that i was able to have faith in. one that could carry me when i was tired of the journey. today He still walks with me when i am tired from the journey. there have been many things in my life i havent wanted to do, things required by life to be able to live life responsibly. still today there are things i do not want to do that are required fer me to be able to live life successfully. the willingness fer me to decide to change early in this thing we do came from the pure necessity to live. today i still have that willingness. with this unremittin willingness i have been able to accomplish many profound changes in my life. some of these changes, even with this willingness, i fought. they were changin things like resentment, anger, hate, unforgiveness, and fear, which i had used to protect me from the outside world and i didnt want to let go of. today those things have changed into acceptance, love, hope, forgiveness, and faith. the responsibility to make change fer the better and do it with unremittin willingness successfully, has been taught to me by the spiritual principles of this thing we do. 1 day @ a time…