my daily reflections…

this is somethin in the program that i just love. i DO NOT have to use anybodys conception of faith i DO NOT want to. MY faith is MY faith. if MY faith keeps me SOBER than it is a FAITH i am goin to continue to use. i have learned from watchin others fail at faith. it seems they continuously try to use a faith they are begrudgin with in the 1st place. it seems they fail at it because they either dont want to have a faith that works fer em, or simply like the idea of losin, idk. i was no different at one time. i am grateful i have a FAITH which is of a type i can use to remain in recovery successfully, it works fer ME. i no longer need to FEAR faith. i always had faith that alcohol would take away any distress or discomfort i was faced with in my life. i believed in it so much, it became my answer to all of my problems, whether fancied or real. when i came into this thing we do i was asked to have faith in somethin else, a faith in an HP that could do much the same as alcohol did, only it would last longer, and be more superior than alcohol could have ever been. of course, right away the old prejudices against God and religion came croppin up. it was explained to me that to have faith in my HP, and obtain the spiritual asset of recovery, i didnt have to believe in anothers idea as religion had told me. it was somethin that would come from within me, my own idea or conception. today i use the idea of faith at all times of my day. my faith today breeds hope within me. my understandin of spirituality, and its meanin in my life, is substance that grows with, and within me, each day. i am no longer as privy to confusion or disorientation when it comes to my idea of my HP or the spiritual principles i need to live my life by. 1 day @ a time…