my daily reflections…

i can still have trouble doin this. it gets easier the longer i am in the program and realize that the more i do turn everythin over and take me out of it, the simpler things go. havin faith that God can and will take care of me, or the things goin on in my life, is an ongoin process and i am grateful i am able to do this. there are many situations in my life that i need to turn over, my life, in itself, is the main thing. i have learned through this thing we do that i cannot control everythin or everybody. when i 1st came into recovery i had had enough and was tired of tryin to control every little aspect of my life, i had already failed enough. it was time fer me to stop and try anothers way. today even after years in recovery, and havin found ways to release the things in my life i cant control, i still tend to try to control them. these are times i must relinquish my thoughts, turn to meditation, and listen fer my HPs will. lettin loose of expectations, turnin my life and will over so that i may find the answers, so i may resume livin my life happy, joyous, and free. carryin continued faith that my HP will guide me in the right direction to accomplish this goal frees me from self-will. 1 day @ a time…