my daily reflections…

essential in my recovery, surrender. the God of my understandin does not need to be the God of anyone elses understandin. i am so grateful i was able to get through this strong barrier so i could begin my relationship with Him. i know today that without Him i am nothin. as long as i continue to surrender my self-will to the God of my understandin, i have a fightin chance. it was explained to me how growth by surrenderin my self-will, should be a rather straightforward process. i was told, much to my objection, i had already done it fer most of my drinkin days with alcohol; through my involvement with my alcoholism i had surrendered to its every whim. of course, at 1st i thought this was just plain crazy until i had actually sat down and processed this information. i had surrendered to it; my alcoholism had become my master. after long thought i decided what i had been told was right. then is when i made the decision to try and let an HP be somethin in my life i would follow, and let it be my guide fer life. i was apprehensive at 1st because i had all the ideas of what i had been taught as a child floatin in my head. my sponsor then told me, “it is your conception joel, no one elses but yours.” today i surrender my self-will in many different ways daily, it is what i need to do to live happily. keepin faith that my HP has me in His hands at every turn i take, i get to live a life of freedom through the surrender of my self-will. 1 day @ a time…