my daily reflections…

as this mornins readin suggests, if i want to maintain a good life, i have to let go of old character defects no matter how warm and comfortin. turnin those bad character defects into a thankful heart, was tough fer me in the beginnin. those character defects were all i knew, and they got me through each day. how was i to let them go, they offered security and protection. i still today, can turn back to those character defects that served, as i thought, a good purpose in my life. when i sense this comin on, i have to remember that those character defects got me in all sorts of trouble. askin God to take them from me so i can love and be loved and be thankful fer what He has given me, is where its at fer me today. learnin how to love me was an excessively big challenge when i first started out on this journey of recovery. i had to overcome some towerin mountains and walls i had built up against bein able to love myself. sure, i could try to love others, but it wasnt goin anywhere until i forgave myself and started to love myself. the only way these two emotions leave me, is when i take my self-will back and try to run the show. again, as this mornins readin suggests, when i am brimmin with thankfulness and gratitude, love toward me and toward others becomes a part of my life. love is the finest emotion i have ever felt. remainin full of gratitude and love is not always easy fer me. i need that constant conscious contact with my HP to help guide me toward these two impressive feelins through prayer and meditation. when i am open to His will,they stay a part of my life. 1 day @ a time…