my daily reflections…

i can remember when i started to tell my sponsor all the things in my life i thought were wrong. how if, they, wouldnt have done, this, i wouldnt have done, that. how seemingly, without provocation, i was attacked by whatever it was that caused the problem, and you KNOW, i didnt have anythin to do with it. my sponsor looked at me and chuckled. i thought, hey mannn, i dont see anythin funny here. after time with him i learned that i had plenty to do with all the things i, thought, were someone elses, doins. i learned to get honest and look at, MY part, in, MY problems. my sponsor guided me into a relationship with an HP i could rely on to help me with this honesty so i could firmly grasp the solution to what i had done. this is somethin that i have found to be a never endin process in my recovery. though i may use the 10th step fer most things i come across today, i still need the 4th step inventory to really look deep within and figure out my faults. this can often times be a very difficult thing to do fer me, blamin others, was always so much easier. i reckon my goal in continuin to keep my 4th step inventory an open option available to me is so that i can continue to live the spiritual principles that have done so well fer me in the past. in the final analysis i always find that i do play a part in many of my human weaknesses. i am reminded that the reason the steps prior are so important is because without the honesty, hope, and faith of them, it would be impossible to have the courage to do my 4th step inventory, or any inventory thereafter. with the principles in place i can then accept my humanness and proceed with the “house cleanin” as planned, so i may prepare myself to set the matters straight, when the, right, time comes. 1 day @ a time…