my daily reflections…

this is where true honesty and humility came into play for me. i can lie to myself strong enough that i begin to believe my own lies; i can even think im outsmartin God. when i am honest with another person it forces me to be held accountable. i can no longer lie to myself or think im outsmartin God. i cant hide anymore when i have been truthful and totally honest with another person. God will walk with me as i make this journey in healin my heart and mind. what freedom and liberation it was to truly get all of the crap i had been holdin on to out. i had kept so much anger, hate, and frustration in for so long it had made me sick in more ways than one. sharin all of that garbage with someone else besides me was like a dump truck spillin its load all over a highway. i had developed enough willingness, honesty, hope, and faith to finally give it to my HP and share it with my sponsor. admittin all of this was a sort of redemption for me, emancipatin myself from all the secrets i had held dearly; it was the start of healin my heart and mind. it was time to move on, live in the moment, and stop fearin the past, present, and future. 1 day @ a time…