my daily reflections…

cleanin house requires action on my behalf, action i really do not want to do, but must if i want change in my life to occur. askin God fer guidance in this area i can find the peace and courage to do it. as the readin suggests sharin these character defects and shortcomins with God wasnt such a difficult proposition, it didnt seem as hard to do as it did when i sat down with my sponsor. my HP couldnt scorn me as another human bein could. it was difficult sharin these things with my sponsor. all i could continue to think of were the things i had done to others to hurt them; how bad i wanted my life to change so i wouldnt do those things ever again. i realized after speakin with others, who had quality recovery, the only way i was to get recovery was to become willin, honest, and open-minded enough to get these things out and share these defects of character and shortcomins with my sponsor. the time had come, it was to be done. what i can say about God and this process is this, when i started this thing we do i did not realize or even understand the depth in which God or my HP would have to be involved. sure, i had seen God mentioned as i initially scanned through the steps. i genuinely believe that without the hope and faith i had begun to nurture in the steps prior with my HP, i wouldnt have been able to let loose of these deep hidden secrets with my sponsor or anybody else. 1 day @ a time…