my daily reflections…

to be free at last, to not have to be somethin i couldnt ever be then has turned into somethin i can be today. sharin with my sponsor that one sunday mornin has given me the courage to just be joel and the best part of that is i am ok with it. i can be wrong i can be right and i dont have to care whether others like it or not. it was a very humblin experience to have told my sponsor all of the defects of character and shortcomins i had developed though my years of alcoholism. to just lay it out there, let someone else know, when before it was always somethin kept buried deep, secret, and hidden. as if it wasnt bad enough to learn all of these things by writin em down, now came the time to just whip it all out in front of God and someone else. once these were laid out and uncovered, there was really nothin more fer me to do than accept em and try to be someone different than i ever had been. as the years have passed i have worked and lived hard at changin the person i found out i was that day. it has taken time, but it has been time well spent, humility has been a gained result. i have continued to make the necessary changes to become a dif man than that day. i continue to live the freedom i experienced that one day not so long ago. 1 day @ a time…