my daily reflections…

i cant tell ya i dont feel remorse, sorrow, or guilt fer past ill deeds done dirty, i still do. today i dont have to hide inside a bottle, drink, and cry those feelins away. this thing we do has given me a way to let these nonproductive, and perfectly healthy, feelins go so i can move on. i can give them to God and move forward with my day. do the feelins come back? sometimes they do. today i know it is just my alcoholism tryin to be cunnin and weasel its way back into my life. as i quickly realize this i give it to Him and move forward. each day i awaken i start my day with prayer and meditation. i ask that my HP show me the way toward His perfect way of life and listen fer His direction. these simple acts set me on a course fer a day of His guidance. though i may have reflection of days gone past when my life wasnt as nice and neat as i would have it be, i neednt go into full on remorse, sorrow, or guilt over them. i neednt even try to compile more upon myself by takin even one drink over it. i remember the days of sorrowful drinkin, sayin, and doin shit only to pass the present moment. today when i feel those feelins i can allow myself to feel them and then let them go. usin the spiritual principles i have been taught, i can pass through times of emotional sentiment and continue forth growin spiritually. those times can be buildin blocks to use at my discretion should i choose to. 1 day @ a time…