my daily reflections…

when i finally started to live and let live and give the problems that were beyond my control over to my HP i did notice a change in how i grasp lifes situations. this was truly a step towards acceptance and peace. realizin that i could really do nothin about certain situations in my life, this realization led me to the belief that He, not i, was God. lettin shit be, the way shits gonna be, can be a tough practice in peace and serenity fer me sometimes. my mind gets to runnin, i get to thinkin, and there i go again. it took me a lot of practice to learn how to live and let live. maybe if i tweaked it this way, it would work better. learnin how to let go and let God is one of the toughest things in recovery i can think of. it seems it doesnt get done fast enough without my valuable input. learnin patience throughout my recovery has helped with all of this. i think back upon times and wonder how they may have turned out if i didnt continually put joel in the middle of em. through all of this learnin, i have learned today, i am free. free from the unhealthy thinkin, emotions, and behaviors i used to be a slave to, mostly the shit of my own doins, when i utilize the spiritual principles recovery has taught me. quiet meditation each mornin provides fer surrender and peace fer each days start, peace fer each days freedoms. 1 day @ a time…