my daily reflections…

it says in the back of the book, in the spiritual experience, willingness is indispensable. as i have learned through livin these steps in my life, this is a fact as true as life itself. i can remember only bein willin to do the things i wanted, the way i wanted, and that was all. i thought i could live life as i saw fit, takin only direction from me. i thought i could change solid principles in life to suit my needs and that others would eventually climb aboard once they saw how great i was. ya know, that didnt work out fer me so well. i fought fer it tooth and nail, i was unwillin to do the things as society commanded. comin into the rooms, after bein whooped into submission by king alcohol, i finally understood somethin clearly at last; my unwillingness was not workin fer me! there had to be change, not by everybody else around me, but rather, by me. after i had open the can of worms of willingness, all kinds of things began to change fer me, mostly an honest ability to be open-minded enough to live life as He instructed. when i was new to this thing we do my sponsor asked me if i had a problem with God. i told him no. i also told him i was raised in a Christian home but was angry at God because of the things i thought He should have been doin fer me and didnt. well, that began a lesson; my sponsor explained to me the difference between spirituality and religion. he talked to me about the two and helped me to understand how willingness, honesty, and open-mindedness all fit together to form my own quality of a HP, and how spirituality was somethin which would come from within me. today i understand, as best as i can, how my spirituality affects my life. i understand today how important it is to have a relationship with my HP and how doin His will daily helps to keep me in recovery. 1 day @ a time…