Hello, I'm Vitta from Indonesia currently living in Bali. I am married this May 28th 2019 with a British young man (10 years younger than me). He is having alcohol problem and as well anxiety. He is basically a good heart man, but his sickness of alcohol and anxiety mostly forgotten what is his nature. But don't get me wrong, I love my husband dearly though he had hurt me so deep. I am in a journey to fix myself, I am far from perfect and I am trying to fill myself before I am able to help my husband who is sick. I have slightly problems with my parents as well (sisters too), I grew up watching my parents kept fighting to small things or the big like when my dad caught kept cheating to my mom. High expectation came from my mom so I can be whatever she cannot be. I felt that i mislead to walk through this world. Therefore i am in the search to find a better me for myself so then i can be better for my environment.