Especially in the beginning of recovery, I could only see my life in crisis. A victim. Mortified by my minds eye as it wandered my past in search of reason, seeing only blame. Holy crap the places I'd been and things I'd seen. Could that really have been me in my black hole with only...

learnin how to surrender, tolerate, accept, and love myself took time in my early recovery. i was so pissed bout the stuff i had done, and i knew, as my newly sober life drug on, just who was to blame for the things that happened. here i was, sober, knowin i was to blame, lookin...

perseverance means that i continue to do what recovery has taught me whether i feel like i want to or not. yes, takin a break from a day and usin it to rest is important, but to not do what recovery has taught me, is a recipe for disaster. its why balance is so important....

recovery has offered me a way to find peace of mind. it has taught me how to shut off the committee in my head that could never find agreement on anythin. all i could ever get from the constant argument within was confusion. i could never decide what was right or what was wrong. obviously,...

when i came into the rooms i knew alcohol had whooped my ass. i had lost everythin i had ever loved and worked for. and yet, deep within, i had this lurkin notion that i didnt know if this thing we do would work for me. to say i was scared would be a total...

its been proven to me that when i step back, stop pushin my shit, relax and take it easy, my day goes much better. when i am open minded, i get the opportunity to learn, whether its from my own mistakes, or anothers. i dont think i ever experienced either in their true definition before...

even as my will gets in my way, even after startin each day with spiritual readins, prayer, and meditation before i even leave my home and move out into the world, i can still get wrapped up in self and live out my will usin it as a battle ax against others w/out even realizin...

just like anythin else that has been good for me, my recovery has taken time. i didnt have today what i had the first day i walked into the rooms to start this journey. and i dont think if i stopped doin what it takes to keep it that i could keep it. my sponsor...

I am constantly amazed by how much is possible when I simply try to listen to those who demonstrate, consistently over time, that they are sincere (or, in the weakest mental interpretation possible, trying to be) in an endeavor that I myself consider to be of primary importance: sobriety. Sitting in these meetings on this...

there was a time in my life, and even into my early recovery, when i would blame others for the shit that happened to me. i couldnt see past me doin anythin wrong. i could pick the fault out in others and totally disregard my own. if bad shit happened to me, i always had...