my daily reflections…

i could not see the damage i was doin to my family, others, or myself back in the days of doin my dirt. to think i was doin anythin other than the norm, was a thought i could not fathom. and when i did come to realize it, the excuse which kept me wrapped in self was, im only hurtin myself. there was no way i could ever imagine, or think, i was harmin others, even as it was realized by everyone else around me. and when i did finally realize it, i couldnt do anythin about it. i was trapped tight in the grasp of my alcoholism. i have an understandin today what it was that woke me up that one cold day in early april. it was, as this mornins readin suggests, an act of providence. i cannot say that i liked it, or truly even wanted it, but as i began my journey into recovery this last time, that act continued to stay with me, grow, and evolve, day in and day out. today it is still with me. im grateful, and thankful, i still get to experience the guidance and direction providence continues to provide. 1 day @ a time...