my daily reflections…

it is my understandin today, long before i realized my drinkin had become out of control, it had become no mere habit, i could see where, maybe not clearly when, but the fatal progression of my alcoholism had begun. its really an easy to see progression if i honestly look into it. and today, its even more apparent how my emotions and behavior, were guided by the said progression. havin a couple of days in recovery today, the areas i truly need to be honest about are the areas where i can let self-will start derailin me into a self-guided emotion or behavior. resentment, jealousy, envy, frustration, and fear, become avenues fer excitement, anger, worry, self-pity, and foolish decisions. when these become uncontrollable usin the recovery ive come to rely on, a drink is the only thing that will help. however, today, i aint gotta take that journey. i get to maintain a particular daily reprieve through the maintenance of my spiritual condition. when i do these simple daily mornin actions, prayer, and meditation, i set myself up fer a life not in need of that next first drink coz i have proven and time-tested solutions which work for happiness, peace, and a calmin serenity. 1 day @ a time...