my daily reflections…

once again, i find myself reflectin on a pivotal moment from two decades ago today, a transformation i could never have achieved on my own. i remember the feelins of desperation, hopelessness, and loneliness that led me to seek help on the last day of doin my dirt. that day marked the end of my misguided belief/self-delusion that i could drink and still lead a successful life. while self-honesty wasnt my strongest trait, i found the courage to express my desire to get sober to the director of a halfway house, which felt like a significant first step toward true self-honesty. i still cherish my friendship with him, and if he happens to read this, i hope he knows how much that moment meant to me. whether or not my HP was listenin, i believe He opened a door for me that day. over my time in this thing we do, ive been fortunate to learn valuable lessons from experiences i once overlooked durin the days of doin my dirt. desperation has transformed into optimism and service, hopelessness into hope and recovery, and loneliness into fellowship and unity. the very emotions that once threatened to consume me because of my alcoholism have now become sources of strength, guidin me forward as i continue to embrace the journey of this thing we do. 1 day @ a time…