my daily reflections…

i was uncertain about the effectiveness of recovery when i entered the rooms for what i hoped would be the last time. i realized that i had never fully surrendered, and my reluctance to relinquish control prevented me from genuinely committin to sobriety. as i became entangled in a web of "what ifs," i hindered my ability to confront my alcoholism, trappin myself in my own thoughts. to escape the turmoil i was in, i needed to release my worries and fears. i learned that livin in the past and lackin trust in my HP only set me up for failure. thus, i had to actively cultivate willingness. it would be futile to apply previous spiritual principles if i couldnt embrace the one i was currently facin. as emphasized in this mornins readin, willingness is essential. it required courage to open up more than i ever had before, and i understood that remainin completely abstinent from alcohol or drugs was impossible without pushin forward. reflectin on the progress i had made and the barriers i had dismantled allowed me to recognize the positive changes in my life. although willingness seemed like a simple concept, it often filled me with doubt. however, as time has passed, i have evolved alongside it. today, willingness remains a spiritual principle i must practice, and as i continue to advance, it has become easier to trust in god and, in turn, trust myself. i now grasp the importance of willingness to surrender and the benefits it brings. 1 day @ a time...