my daily reflections…

after completin my fourth step moral inventory and sharin it verbally with my sponsor, i found myself at a pivotal moment where i needed to fully surrender myself to my HP. my sponsor reassured me that, despite the challenges this presented, all i needed to do was make the effort. the question loomed large: could i genuinely offer myself and everythin i held dear to my HP? i had just confronted my deepest fears and shared them with another person, a feat i once deemed impossible. regardless of the severity of my experiences compared to others, i had diligently faced my inner demons and opened up about them. previously, my understandin of God had always been acceptin of my personal communication style, even when it was shaped by my own biases. i often heard what i wanted to hear through this self-influenced dialogue. however, the time had come for me to relinquish that control and truly listen to the messages from my HP, even if they were uncomfortable. the only requirement was to try. throughout my early recovery, i learned the importance of effort and experienced success in that endeavor. although i may still grapple with acceptance and surrender, the lessons from my past empower me to move forward, guidin me toward a more fulfillin life. all i must do is try. 1 day @ a time…