my daily reflections…

throughout my life, i have often felt an inner voice guidin me, though whether i chose to heed it was another matter entirely. my desire for autonomy frequently led me to ignore that intuition, as i prioritized my own wants over the subtle nudges of my conscience. i acted in what i believed was my best interest, often failin to recognize that my definition of "best" was rooted in selfishness. this self-centeredness, as noted in the literature, resulted in a life filled with dishonesty, resentment, and fear, which i was blind to at the time. the natural desires i possessed, rather than enrichin my life, became sources of emotional turmoil that i struggled to overcome. a thorough examination of my character revealed numerous flaws that i had pursued in the name of happiness and peace. it was a revelation to realize that these God-given passions had the potential to wreak havoc on my life and the lives of those around me. recovery taught me that i could address these shortcomins by relinquishin my will and tunin into that inner voice of goodness. i discovered that this was my HP urgin me to make better choices, which required a level of humility that was foreign to me. as i began to embrace this humility, i learned that experience is indeed the best teacher. reflectin on the days of doin my dirt, i recognized that i had created my own chaos, not others. hearin stories from others in recovery about their HPs inspired me to explore humility for myself. gradually, i began to take small steps of faith, which ignited a desire to follow that inner voice of goodness. despite moments of resistance, i have continued to grow and understand how this inner guidance can positively impact my life today, even if inspiration sometimes feels elusive. 1 day @ a time...