my daily reflections…

today i understand that the peace and happiness i once demanded durin the days of doin my dirt were born from ego and fear, not faith. the harder i tried to control life, the further i drifted from a true sense of humility and honest integrity. alcohol always blurred that growin emptiness within, disguisin my unrest as relief. it took complete defeat to feel that peace could never be taken, it had to be invited through surrender. the Step Ten practice learned through this thing we do has become a daily tune-up for the spirit, a quiet Perseverance that keeps me accountable to truth. this thing we do has taught me to look within each night and search out my motives, amend my wrongs, and realign with my HPs will. when i stay honest and humble, serenity rises naturally from within. what once felt like unwanted forced self-discipline now feels like wanted and needed devotion; a lived and practiced gratitude for the grace that continues to nurture a restorative healin within me. 1 day @ a time...