my daily reflections…

freedom from fear is what i receive when i take the time to do the moral inventory of step 8. havin learned from the prior spiritual principles how to use each one effectively, with this inventory and my sponsors help, i get to put what i find in its proper context. its no longer what others did to me, though there may be plausible reason for hurt emotions over their actions, it becomes more how i dealt with the emotions i felt over the shit that happened. how did i behave and think because of the way i felt? did i carry these unhealthy, unbalanced emotions with me into other areas and relationships in my life? did i allow these feelins to create barriers and then use those handicaps to further create other obstacles that caused any impediment to healin in healthy ways? it was lookin at these types of characters and shortcomins that i found the use of the prior principles so helpful to me. they allowed me to rightly find solutions to the perceived harms by others and the ones i projected onto people and heal from them. surely it hurt to bring these back up, but how was i to become the person i am today without doin this deep emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual work? even today, there may be times these harms come back up within, makin me feel awkward or tryin to interject those past emotions and behaviors off onto others. with the work ive done on diggin out this ground glass previously, i can quickly use what ive used before to stop reactin to the stimuli, or i can call on the faith and trust i have in my HP to help me find different, better, ways to use the evolution and growth of my recovery to solve them. as i face my challenges in life and become a better, more spiritual person, i get to grow in my recovery learnin even more spirituality with these challenges. when i use my recovery each new day i get to put away the past and discover the new beginnins i have been given. each day awaits my full presence, and when responsible to each new day, i get to be the recipient of its gifts. freedom from fear, by removin the ground glass within, provides me the emotional substance that gives me peace of mind and a smile of happiness that flows from inside outward. 1 day @ a time...