when i first came into the rooms, i had an understandin that the word God was used. naturally it invoked the ideas from my childhood religious upbringin. i didnt know that the word God could be used loosely. when my sponsor talked to me the very first time, as we spoke alone together, he asked if i had a God problem. i told him of my knowledge as a child and what i had learned from sunday school and church. i told him what my thoughts were so far as my belief in God. i wasnt agnostic, nor did i consider myself an atheist. i let him know that i didnt use Him nor did i pray. as we spoke in later conversations, he explained what the concept of God meant in recovery. he helped me learn that all i needed to do was find a positive power that was as great as the power i had placed in alcohol and give it the power and dependence i gave to alcohol. my sponsor told me i was left free to find a Higher Power and could use the principles of the program and the therapy of the meetins to aid me in rebuildin my life. i didnt have to use the God from my youth, though it is the HP i did choose later on. as i developed a relationship with the God of my understandin, throwin out pieces and lil bits of me to see the results, i came to believe in His presence in my life. today i dont allow myself to get disturbed by the spirituality of the program. i welcome it on my own spiritual terms because i recognize that we are all spiritual beins. ive also learned, to each their own spirituality. i get to live the miracle of recovery with an unexpected resource i presently identify with my own conception of a power greater than myself, i call Him God or my HP. and ive learned, He does not seem to mind. i get to learn and be one with Him, which brings me great joy and inner peace of mind. with the relationship i have with my HP, ive learned self-restraint, honest analysis of the reality involved in my life, a humble willingness to admit when fault is mine to own, and an equal willingness to forgive when the fault is elsewhere. 1 day @ a time...
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bjsrer
corn fed not inbred michigan white trash...