for me, i had to come to a place where i could not see nor find any other way to exist. i wish maybe that i could have been one of em, “high bottom drunks”, but thats not my story. i know i can still dig the hole deeper too, but i aint tryina hurt others or die today. and just because i may be workin and livin a program of recovery today, doesnt mean i cant still hit a bottom while in sobriety. its why it is so important for me to continue to adopt new attitudes and actions that allow the evolution of my recovery to naturally go through lifes changes that help my recovery teach me, and allow me, to learn and grow. i need to experience ups and downs, ebbs and flows, peaks, and valleys, and i need to use what recovery has taught me to sustain me through those times. emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual recovery come at a price. my HP may have made me in His image, but He also gave me the humanness i live with too. the recovery program i get to live today is more a way of buildin a new life than just a way of gettin over drinkin, its the choices i make when im facin success or failure, not chance, that determine my destiny. as long as i use the relationship i have with God, livin His will day in and day out, in the wilderness plains as well as on the mountaintops of experience, i will persevere through daily and momentary situations. there are times i have to use detachment, from family, friends, and even self, so i can hear, or feel, the intuitive voice of my HP. it doesnt mean that i ignore them or myself, it just means that i place a time of quietness in my life so i may recharge. this helps me live through and feel those times of bottom, hopefully not as severely, as i may have before my recovery began. its healthy for me to detach once in a while so i can learn how to use honesty, forgiveness, hope, and love properly. my journey will be what i make it. honestly acceptin consequences, takin responsibility, and facin life so i may recover, is an act of self-respect. 1 day @ a time...
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bjsrer
corn fed not inbred michigan white trash...