my daily reflections…

how instrumental was it that i share what had always been my shame, guilt, and remorse with my sponsor so early in my recovery? it was a door toward openin up the deep-seated self-delusion and fear that i had suffered from for so long in my life prior to recovery. that original 4th step personal inventory may not have been as eloquent or pretty as it should have been, but it was a door to openin up a darkness within that would free me from greater, so-called, delusional, treasures, in growin into the person ive become today. ive done many 4th step inventorys since my first one, each helpin me to a pathway of freedom from the bondage of self. self-honesty can still be hard today, but the difference between the days of doin my dirt and today, is that i can realize self-delusion & self-centered fear, and use a proven solution to let loose of either. i dont have to lie to get what i want today. i can use honest words and actions to achieve success. and even if i may fail in my attempts, i can know within that ive used what ive learned about myself in healthy, balanced, and sane ways. i can be honest enough with myself to be honest with others and my HP. even as others may already know truths, gettin the truths out of me usin humility and love, helps me grow and cultivate relationships that are healthy with others, my HP, and myself. ive learned inner happiness and peace of mind doesnt come if i put into practice the unhealthy action of self-deception. but rather, rightful behavior brings changed cognitive healin, recovery, empowerment, prosperity, and health. success is my choice. when i use self-honesty, i get to experience the spiritual benefits of humility & integrity and can live an effervescent life. i get to gain an ability to make others feel that i really care. a healthy glow from within is shown through my eyes with compassion and empathy for others usin honest & hopeful self-love. with self-honesty i get to have self-acceptance with a reliance on God which enables me to match calamity with serenity. 1 day @ a time...