when i came into the rooms i didnt understand that much of the shit i shouldve been doin i wasnt. my selfishness and self-centered fears had driven me to states of confusion which wouldnt let me see the true realities around me. sometimes, even today, i still feel the shame and remorse for the things i wasnt doin that i shouldve been. i have to remember that ive changed, that ive used recovery to help me grow past the person i used to be. that ive been forgiven and get to be an instrument for my HP. i get to be a person who offers unconditional forgiveness, hope, and love, instead of takin it from others without return. ive taken the time and made the effort to ask my HP to remove my shortcomins so i may live the change recovery offers. ive gotten to learn from the lessons i lived before my recovery began. i get to use that past to create hope for myself and others. today i get to do the things i used to not do. and i get to do em with an honest smile on my face that comes from deep within. anxiety and the inferiority complex have turned to certainty, confidence, and healthy self-esteem. with these character assets i get to do things that i couldnt in the past. doubt no longer causes disillusionment so i dont focus on the faults i used to, that caused me to balk. faith and trust in my HP have provided me an ability to live in the moment so i can create a better future and clear away the wreckage of my past. with this humility i get the possibility of choice and the exercise of choice allows me to be a member of the society around me, growin in my awareness of my HPs, and others, multifaceted love. when i practice the virtues of patience and love, im bein the instrument my HP asks of me. from my own experience, ive learned to humbly trust God, clean house, and help others when nothin else works. 1 day @ a time...
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bjsrer
corn fed not inbred michigan white trash...