So I am using this feature to journal more than blog. To share what I am going through and to also give me a place to read back in the future to remind myself how I am doing. So today is my second sober. This morning was very surreal waking up without having alcohol the day before. Although it was surreal it was also encouraging. I woke up very foggy brained and very emotional. As today has progressed I have noticed that I am already a little more perceptive I guess is the word to my surroundings. Today has been a little boring and I am trying to just slow my mind down. Last night was terribly hard. I was very much trying to bargain with myself that I didn't need to stop drinking. I guess that's normal. But I made it. I have to say as of right now I am feeling okay. I have this weird loneliness feeling. I think because I know if I keep fighting for the sobriety I want and the life I want then I know I will need to distance myself from the people I usually hang out with. They are pretty much all people I only drink with. We don't see each other outside of drinking. Which I feel like I am at peace with. I am sure I will meet so many new people as time goes on. Well those are my thoughts for today.
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lewis1984
Legal alien here. Englishman in New York (That is probably lost on most people). Hoping to succeed at this thing called recovery and hopefully help others along the way. Damaged soul but hopefully now I can start working on myself and see where it takes me.