my daily reflections…

idk the exact date or time i started to follow and practice the principles of recovery or my HP or feel His intuitive guidance within, what i do know is, as i sat in the rooms, listened, and watched i got to hear and see His works around me. i couldnt understand before my recovery began, how God had a knowledge of my individual life and character, my capabilities, or my weaknesses, but today i do. i get to see and feel His strength and power each day. even when im lettin go and lettin joel, He is there. when i humble myself usin faith, and trust in His works, i get to allow His guidance and direction to help me do the shit i should be doin but aint or cant. i get to let loose the shit that used to feel like common sense for the shit today that used to feel like uncommon sense back in the days of doin my dirt. i only fail when i let my will take over, blockin the spiritual flow from Him. ive lived recovery long enough to understand, as best as i can, when life happens, i typically have little to do with it. thats not to say i cant set shit in motion. but when i live the spiritual principles of recovery as best as i can, the good that happens around me, and even the bad, usually has nothin to do with me like i used to think it did. ive learned i have little power over anythin in the world around me. when im fortunate to have good things happen, like carry a message of recovery, or unfortunate things happen, a friend passin, a car wreck, get sick, or what ev it is, it is my HPs will in action. what the tell of my recovery is, is how i react to what ev happens around me. in the past i had to feel like i had some part in what happened and was so willin to take credit for it. today, it aint like that, and i get to feel the freedom humility gives me. the shortcomins of the past have been removed by my HP. i get to live accordin to the intuitive voice within, leavin the results to God. im grateful God is in my heart and my prayer is one of thanks. as i feel im lovinly watched over, the moment i catch even a glimpse of Gods will, i begin to see truth, justice, and love, as the real and eternal things in life happen around me. today i get to experience the gift of an untroubled mind, by usin humility to leave everythin to God. 1 day @ a time...