my daily reflections…

one of the benefits ive found, so often overlooked, is how as i work with a sponsee, sharin my experience, strength, and hope by tellin what it was like, what happened, and what its like today, is the opportunity for me to continue to lighten the burden of the alcoholism ive carried throughout my life. as each time i communicate my personal spiritual experience, i get the opportunity to unload a little more, of the dark past of the days of doin my dirt. whether or not it is accepted by them, even if our experience hasnt been the same, i often find a connection in the emotions ive felt, in alignment to theirs. this, for me, is where i have an opportunity to be free from self-centeredness and be of service to another; i get to hopefully, be useful. as it is extremely important for my recovery, i mustnt ever try to tell my personal story of becomin recovered, i must try, as best as i can, to express how i alone could never have done this. for it was only by my HPs grace ive been able to form relationships with Him, with others in recovery, with others who arent in recovery, and myself. even if it doesnt help another, even if they decide to move on and find a dif sponsor, i understand ive helped myself by usin the spiritual principles of honesty, hope, faith, courage, integrity, willingness, humility, and brotherly love. isnt recoverys 12 step process such a trickster, such a riddle? i mean to continue to grow in understandin and effectiveness, without even tryin. i get to carry forward into a life of power, joy, and satisfaction which is built on love and service. and when i do grow weary in my attempts to do the right thing, i get to use what ive learned through the 12 spiritual principles to change my emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual place instead of relyin upon self, alcohol, or the material around me to live the change recovery offers. its lightenin the burden i used to carry everywhere i went. my HP allows me to see the wonderful mystery of life even in the ordinary. i no longer have to be held a fugitive from myself. i can face me and my personality. i get to experience how forgiveness, hope, faith, and love are like a muscles, the more i use it, the more it grows. 1 day @ a time...