after i had begun prayer and meditation, experiencin the results of it, and usin the spiritual principles of recovery to surrender, accept, and tolerate the results of prayer and meditation, i could feel the sense of loneliness begin to leave me. important to this process was my sponsors suggestion to try it for 30 days and see what happened. what i began to realize as i let go and let God was the world around me seemed to calm down. i didnt feel as trapped in a world of confusion and chaos. it allowed me to open up a lil more than i had in a long time. prayer and meditation gave me a feelin of bein backed by surety, courage, and determination. and it happened without the use of alcohol or ego. with the action of prayer and meditation, the transformational development of an unusual way of thinkin happened. i could sense within the trust, justice, and love of the relationship i was buildin with self and with my HP. the false sense of ego and pride began to turn into an authentic sense of integrity. these things didnt just happen overnight it took time for the evolution of change in recovery for these things to happen. i began to feel like i could be who i genuinely wanted to and say things that werent speared with daggers toward others. the shit that used to burn my ass became things that, the most valuable commodity i have, time, wasnt spent on. i started to care less about myself and more about others important in my life. with my HPs strength i was able to meet the things that must be met, i became able to either overcome em or use em in healthy ways. i learned that nothin should daunt me for long, nor should any difficulty entirely overcome or conquer me. it was total surrender, acceptance, and tolerance that became the humility i had always sought. today the sense of belongin i feel is a splendid torch that i want to make burn as brightly as possible. today i have a defense, and i use it. 1 day @ a time...
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corn fed not inbred michigan white trash...