my daily reflections…

here again it was suggested that when times of struggle arise, i take a few moments to keep my big fat mouth shut, recall my mornin daily readins, and check myself to see if i am livin up to what i perceived through meditation. all i truly have to do to make sure i dont let go and let joel, is stop, recall my mornin time of quiet inspiration, ask my HP for His intuitive voice or thought of reason, open myself to it, and proceed with a tight lip. it took time to learn how to do this, the not strugglin thing, but as ive lived my recovery as best as i can, ive experienced the benefits and blessins of relaxin, surrenderin, acceptin, and toleratin, what the answers may be from my HP. i learned early in my recovery, i dont have to like it, thats an option, all i have to do is what i perceive is my HPs will and move forward with grace. when i try to follow Gods design for right now or today, i receive the sense of Divine Intent in what i do right now in this moment. intuition and inspiration may help me plan for the future, but i must live in the present. it is what i do with intuition and inspiration that set my future outcomes. livin my HPs will allows me to make the amends i need to for past wreckage and sets my future with potential good outcomes. in recovery ive learned im always given what i need, when i need it. i can appreciate whatever is happenin much more easily when i believe that. i aint gotta struggle, i can responsibly plan for what takes place in my day as His will. there is a difference between my will and His, and i know when im missin out on the moment when im broodin over the present, past, or fearin the future. accountable actions like prayer and meditation keep me spiritually aware. keepin the relationship with my HP alive and growin so i may keep my relationships with others and self growin. He will give me what i need so long as im willin and patient enough to receive it. 1 day @ a time...