my daily reflections…

i cant tell ya that i dont still suffer from the fear of failure sometimes, coz i do. i reckon God has graced me with the blessin of humanness. there are things around me every day that cause me to be fearful. the process of the steps has given me the knowledge, as i have looked back with courage upon my past, that when i am fearful i tend to do stupid shit. fear, generated by failure, can, and will, guide my emotions, behaviors, and actions; i am not immune from my humanness. through the 12 steps, my sponsor has shown me how to adequately deal with fear or failure, when they arise, with the courageous spiritual principles of love and tolerance. when i sense fear attackin me i can look at it head on and face it effectively, win or lose with surrender, acceptance, tolerance, and love. the practice fer me today is to not turn and run tail, but to look at failure and fear and let my humanness know i and my HP, stand ready, with scores of others, are ready to deal with each emotion constructively. i no longer have to do it alone. love and tolerance are practices i continue to use daily when failure generates the soul-sickness of fear. 1 day @ a time…