my daily reflections…

fear in its many forms has driven me to unbelievable acts of selfish behavior. it is 1 of those emotions that can truly run my life if i let it. in the past, to combat fear, i would drink it away into oblivion, only to cause more problems later on. it was the only way i knew to combat it successfully. today i have new tools to help me with the fears that crop up each day. askin my HP to help guide me through it, with surrender, acceptance, honesty, forgiveness, and love, is what recovery has taught me to use today. as the big book says, i need to continuously watch fer resentment, jealousy, envy, frustration, and fear. i know when i am feelin anger, worry, and self-pity, i start to make foolish decisions and my behavior changes to the worst. it can be tough fer me to identify fear, but i do know that when any of the feelins mentioned above start to become too overwhelmin, fear is most generally behind it all. it is the evil and corrodin thread that can envelop my every emotion. the emotional hangover and misunderstandin that happens to me when i am wrapped in fear used to be cured by alcohol. today i have different ways to manage fear that are healthy and productive. meditation, prayer, inventory, talkin with others, all of these i use, to deal with fear today. i no longer have to run or hide from fear. simply lookin at it fer what it is, findin out its root cause, and facin it, brings me to a point were humility can be reached. i can use fear as a God-given opportunity to develop courage and strength to move forward in recovery. 1 day @ a time…